The alcohol is tearing my stomach up but that doesn’t matter while I fill up my cup
childhood demons coming hard and fast don’t know how much longer I can last
everywhere I go the trouble seems to follow I put on my nikes and run like Apollo
I wanna get away I don’t want to wallow and the pill life gives I don’t wanna swallow
so here I am and I’m stuck like stupid because I let an arrow from cupid
hit my heart in the weakest spot, and now that bitch got me in a headlock
I’m at jesus door going KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK, answer the door please don’t keep it locked.
I’m standing out here in the pouring ass rain and I hate that I am here once again
it seems like all I feel is nothing but shame, and that is a feeling so loaded with pain
I look all around for someone to blame
I look all around for someone to blame
but they’re gone, not coming back, and now I feel an anxiety attack
coming to hit me always from the back rubbing my nose in all that I lack
waiting waiting waiting for an answer
Jesus please come cure this cancer
it’s eating me up from the inside out
even though I keep pulling out the seeds of doubt
waiting waiting waiting for an answer
Jesus please come cure this cancer
it’s eating me up from the inside out
even though I keep pulling out the seeds of doubt
I have to believe it only seems like i’m failing
when the truth is that I am probably sailing
across every ocean always prevailing
even when life seems so unavailing
I am a tough ass bitch this I do know
lemons in my garden are the only thing that grow
eyes all burning but I go with the flow
except I do it backwards, it’s part of my show
One day I will finish this lifetime race
running to the goal of unfettered grace
Jesus in my pocket HE IS MY ACE
it’s hard to believe he hasn’t turned his face
I feel so worthless most of the time
blaming myself for my father’s crimes
but then the wind blows and I can hear the chimes
and the slow still voice points out the landmines
beloved run here, don’t run there
the mothafucking landmines are everywhere
watch where you step, walk with care
and when you feel lonely find the sun and just stare
fuck whose watching…why the fuck care?
if you feel shame just let down your hair
and know they’re all numbered, my dear Sarah
I love all my children but you are fairer
keep that thought close in your desolate land
while you know you can always take my hand
I’ll walk you through the valleys of sand
and Ill get you to the promised land
keep your chin up while you get a tan
the place I am taking you is fucking grand
I tell no lies, I AM the Son of man
I tell no lies, I Am the Son of man
waiting waiting waiting for an answer
Jesus please come cure this cancer
it’s eating me up from the inside out
even though I keep pulling out the seeds of doubt
waiting waiting waiting for an answer
Jesus please come cure this cancer
it’s eating me up from the inside out
even though I keep pulling out the seeds of doubt
waiting waiting waiting for an answer
Jesus please come cure this cancer
it’s eating me up from the inside out
even though I keep pulling out the seeds of doubt
waiting waiting waiting for an answer
Jesus please come cure this cancer
it’s eating me up from the inside out
even though I keep pulling out the seeds of doubt